The Little Things

The little things that make me happy:

  1. In the summer, when I walk in my house and feel the cool air after being outside in the hot sun
  2. Waking up and realizing I have more time to sleep
  3. Smiling at strangers and getting a smile back
  4. Making anyone laugh
  5. Learning a new song
  6. Seeing other people happy
  7. Getting in bed after a long day and a hot shower
  8. Imagine Dragon’s “On Top Of The World”
  9. Being complimented in person, it’s natural and honest
  10. Helping others, knowing I made a difference
  11. The view of any city from a plane

These are just a few of many things that I should appreciate more to make my day brighter and more positive.

A Rant About My Stressful, School-Surrounded Life

Just another day my dreams didn’t come true.
Another day of being let down from my high expectations.
I don’t know why I expect so much out of myself when I do so little,
but there’s no one to push me to accomplish my goals.
There’s always excuses or forced conflicts, so I can’t spend time on my personal activities that I enjoy.
Nobody understands how important these little things are because they are who I am, I can’t disregard them.
I need a break from the forced work and spend more time accomplishing my personal goals.
The more goals I set for myself, the more I resent myself because I never accomplish them.
My life has been taken over by numbers that represent who I am.
I should not defined by the numbers they put next to my name.
I want to be defined by what I accomplished and created on my own. It’s what I need.

Numb vs Pain

It’s so easy to not feel anything,

the more pain I should feel, the more I hold back.

Then there are those days when I break down.

It all builds up, then that’s when it’s painful

I wish I could be normal and let it out on time

but I’m different, and so is my mind.

I feel numb most of my days

until something hits me and breaks through the numbed space

Meeting New People

I’m never going to hold back any side of me

I’m not going to wait to show who I am

I want to always stay true to myself

If it’s been a while, and you ask how I’ve been, I’m going to tell you the truth, even if it does scare you

I’m not going to pretend I’m fine when I’ve hit rock bottom

I’m going to tell you about my personal life and feelings even if we just met

Theres nothing to hide, because eventually you’ll see that side of me, so why wait

I want to be the real me

You Changed

I know it’s been a while

But you’ve changed, for the bad

You let him get to your head

I warned you before

But it was still your choice

You took the wrong path

All I ever wanted to do was help

You were too caught up in his needs

You should’ve been yourself

I’m not here for you anymore

I don’t want to waste my time

You don’t appreciate my advice

You always pushed me away

Next time don’t let a boy ruin your day