When things get hard I always back down
Facing challenges is difficult for me
The feeling comes as if I am about to drown
I wish things came to me easily
I know my goals, just not the plan
I wish I could get a hint
I’m constantly struggling to figure it out
I want to say I lived, but I didn’t
I want to reach the top, fulfill myself and what I’ve got
I just don’t know where to start, so many different directions
I see everyone else reach it, but never the same way
How do I get myself there, I feel a disconnection
I know I’m young, but the time is really now
But I keep taking steps back, getting further from home
I don’t want to go back to school,
I want to go back out there and explore the world.
I don’t want to go to college.
I’m missing out on everything while I’m stuck in a classroom.
I want to go my own way and break out of this terrible system.
I don’t want to be forced to go to school and go to college to get a job and a life I don’t want
This is NOT what I want.
I need to use the talents and ambition God gave me.
I don’t want to be another clone that these schools create.
I don’t want to be another number.
I want to explore, be myself, and live a life I deserve.
I was away for 10 days without the stress and worry, but it all hit me once I got home. I can’t get away until I actually go away.
(Just got back from Italy not even an hour ago and I have school tomorrow.)