new sun

it’s been months
finally the sun has come out
was I in a dark dream
have i just woken up
this sunlight, so foreign
like the first time i’m feeling it
it’s almost nostalgic
triggers mood so pensive
open up the shades
let the real light in

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this train

as this train slows down
my heart speeds up
spent hours in this seat
it’s time to get up

time to move forward
just like the train
get ready for the next few months
in this new city

I have nothing
I have nobody
all I have are these heavy bags
too big for me

took myself out of a familiar place
now in this city
not one recognizable face

(October 23, 2015 12:14 AM [London])

guide me there

brain dead
body numb
sleep on sleep
no work done

morning comes
wake up wake up
Truman show
home, but lost

less sleep
more time
brain works
I’m fine

lead the way
out of here
creative mind
guide me there

day and dream

during the day i avoid
i avoid things i know will intrude on my peace
i filter bad words
bad sentences
bad stories
bad things
so my mind is at peace

but at night
everything comes back in my dreams
i wake up scared and distressed
i create bad things
since i don’t confront them awake
i confront them in my sleep

Friendship Downfall

You know you’ve reached the downfall in a friendship when you need to talk to someone about a personal problem, but you can’t get yourself to talk to a friend because you feel as if he/she won’t help.

I feel like I’m not getting any help in return of all the effort I put into my friend’s problems.

I try not to expect much out of anyone really, but I should be allowed to expect help when I need it, isn’t that what friends are for?

Are you ever stuck when you don’t know who to talk to anymore and you feel like you have reached the expiration date in your friendships? 

You Changed

I know it’s been a while

But you’ve changed, for the bad

You let him get to your head

I warned you before

But it was still your choice

You took the wrong path

All I ever wanted to do was help

You were too caught up in his needs

You should’ve been yourself

I’m not here for you anymore

I don’t want to waste my time

You don’t appreciate my advice

You always pushed me away

Next time don’t let a boy ruin your day