blurry

time in slow motion
wonder who you’re lovin
now things are different
I’m on this side holdin onto nothin

walk away, walk away from me
away from this place, i’ll let you be
my heart beats too fast, I can’t sleep
no more of this, you did this to me

time goes too fast,i can’t see
when I look back
everything is so blurry

our perception of time was different
connection we had was lost, so distant
was it good, was it bad, who cares/doesn’t matter, you already left
all I have left are all those songs you wrote
did you mean them, or was our time here just a joke

october 22, 2015 1:37 PM on train to London

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this train

as this train slows down
my heart speeds up
spent hours in this seat
it’s time to get up

time to move forward
just like the train
get ready for the next few months
in this new city

I have nothing
I have nobody
all I have are these heavy bags
too big for me

took myself out of a familiar place
now in this city
not one recognizable face

(October 23, 2015 12:14 AM [London])

Old Friend…

The best feeling is when someone you haven’t talked to in a while contacts you out of the blue

You know you’ve been on their mind

Which makes you feel wanted in a different way than usual

That you had an impact on someone’s life

It makes you forget about the people and friends you see every day

It makes you think back to the old times you had with that person

Nothing drastic caused the pause in the friendship,

Just distance, new experience, a busy personal life, getting caught up in other things

There’s so much to talk about because it’s been so long

Each other’s presence makes the both of you happy

I just think it’s the best surprise and feeling a person could have from a relationship

The Outdoors And My Mind

Being outdoors really opens my mind

It gives me hope in a way

It makes me realize that there are so many different kinds of people out there

Everybody has their own story, each one is unique

I’m not alone in anything that I do

There will always be someone who will understand

They all go through their own struggles, too

There are so many different things to see, as well

No matter how hard things are, there’s always a place to go

If you think about it, you can run away from your problems

Find a place that provides clarity and peace, that’s all one needs

Being outdoors proves to me that I am not stuck here

This life is temporary, but it is in my hands to decide now what I will do with what I have to get me to where I need to go.

 

 

 

 

Wish

I wish for you when I look up at the sky, counting the stars that pass by

I even make wishes on the dandelions, growing too fast in the back garden

You’re my secret wish when I blow out the candles on my birthday

I use all my wishes on you, I hope that they will come true

You should know how much you’re on my mind

Do you think of me when you come across these things?

Friendship Downfall

You know you’ve reached the downfall in a friendship when you need to talk to someone about a personal problem, but you can’t get yourself to talk to a friend because you feel as if he/she won’t help.

I feel like I’m not getting any help in return of all the effort I put into my friend’s problems.

I try not to expect much out of anyone really, but I should be allowed to expect help when I need it, isn’t that what friends are for?

Are you ever stuck when you don’t know who to talk to anymore and you feel like you have reached the expiration date in your friendships?